When is your next blog post? You haven’t posted to the blog in awhile. Why did you stop writing? How are you feeling? Do you still have cancer because you look good? How’s Joe?
These are usually the first questions I am bombarded with when I’m asked about my blog. Insider tip: I have never stopped writing. I am always writing. Sometimes it isn’t with a paper and pen its all in my brain. I know you’re probably shocked I have a brain and actually use it.
The last year has been one hell of a ride. It wasn’t that I didn’t want to write I was. I had ideas in my head and jotted them down in a notebook or on my computer. I just didn’t take the time to actually write them out or share them with the world. I wasn’t purposely not writing to leave you on a cliffhanger. I leave that to the movies and books.
A lot has happened in my life. Last year I was doing hard-core chemo as my treatment. I was spending a couple days in the hospital being pumped with chemo in hopes it would shrink the tumors in my lungs. I was run down, I was tired, and I wanted a break. My break came when I went to Florida for 5 weeks with my horse Joe. Nothing like a baldhead to make you appreciate hats especially in the Florida sunshine. In late spring I started a clinical trial in Boston and continued that for part of the summer. Spoiler alert it didn’t work. During all this I was showing Joe when I could and riding like always. We unfortunately experienced a huge loss in my family that took a toll on everyone. It was a shock to say the least. Then I had an accident on Joe where I fell off and broke the head of my hummers off my shoulder. Man at the rate I’m going I could probably write a county song.
But in all the sadness and turmoil there was a tiny light trying to shine through all the darkness. It came through me finding my second horse Cor. My majestic unicorn as I like to refer to him as. Yes he’s a grey and yes I know I swore I would never buy a grey horse but when I saw him I knew he was the one. It came through two new babies in our family. It came when I started back to my chemo pills and finding out they are shrinking my tumor. Per usual cautiously optimistic people. So don’t go planning a cancer free picnic anytime soon. That ship sailed a long time ago. In the words of my oncologist, “although your scans are still scary they’re better.” It came when I was driving and I heard the new song “Guiding Light” by Mumford and Sons. It was the perfect soundtrack for my life and the place I am in right now.
Thanks for sticking with me and reading the blog. I have decided it was time to breathe new life into it and bring it back. The crazy stories along with the people are still around. They haven’t gone anywhere. I swear we are magnets at a hospital or cancer center for bizarre stuff to happen. At least we laugh about it or use it to our advantage for a good joke. Finding the humor in everything has been my goal since the beginning. For example, when people call my Grandfathers with those robo calls or for a survey I take distinct pleasure in telling them he’s on a long vacation with family and will not be returning anytime soon. I’m waiting for the day someone asks for his address and I plan to give him the address at the cemetery with the plot number.
I hope you enjoy the blog and the plans I have for it in the upcoming months. I have to give a huge thank you everyone who has been there with me since the beginning. A huge shout out to a good friend for helping me launch the new website and helping me figure out this technology. Enjoy the blog and I look forward to posting my stories as well as having a section where friends I have met along the way can share theirs. In the words of the Grateful Dead, “Lately it occurs to me what a long, strange trip it's been.”